So C (my 'potential guy') has gone to NY to 'clear his head' and I miss him!! Damn! Who knew that you could literally miss something you dont even have!
Before he left he said that he is considering going back with her... BUT, in his words, it wouldn't be because he is in love with her. Nor does he believe the things she told him about her present relationship... and that he knows that if they get back together it will last for some months and then it will be back to the same old shit as before. So, my question is, if you know all these things, why go back!! If its only for the kids, I think that will do them less good than if they stayed apart and friends!
Oh well, my patience is being tested and my heart has to be prepared for IF he comes back with an unfavourable decision for me. Not an easy feat!!
One thing though, is that as the Universe reads this, I will like to ask kindly for this man to be mine. He is kind and loving, stable and gentle... he's sexy and fun.. he loves his family and he likes me enough thus far to even consider me as a worthy alternative to his ex wife!! I deserve to be happy and I deserve love but I will trust that God knows best and that whatever the outcome of this, I will be a better person for it!! I would however, like to have him by my side after it all!
Lord I know you hear me and I pray for all the strength and patience to wait on you... I pray for an increase in my faith in you... You know that I really want to be with someone.. and this man seems to be a great candidate for marriage.. I pray that if he is for me, that you bring him back here with a positive response and that all the other factors will fall into place with your love and grace and mercy as its guide!!
In Jesus sweet and wonderful name, I pray.. Thank you Father!
Before he left he said that he is considering going back with her... BUT, in his words, it wouldn't be because he is in love with her. Nor does he believe the things she told him about her present relationship... and that he knows that if they get back together it will last for some months and then it will be back to the same old shit as before. So, my question is, if you know all these things, why go back!! If its only for the kids, I think that will do them less good than if they stayed apart and friends!
Oh well, my patience is being tested and my heart has to be prepared for IF he comes back with an unfavourable decision for me. Not an easy feat!!
One thing though, is that as the Universe reads this, I will like to ask kindly for this man to be mine. He is kind and loving, stable and gentle... he's sexy and fun.. he loves his family and he likes me enough thus far to even consider me as a worthy alternative to his ex wife!! I deserve to be happy and I deserve love but I will trust that God knows best and that whatever the outcome of this, I will be a better person for it!! I would however, like to have him by my side after it all!
Lord I know you hear me and I pray for all the strength and patience to wait on you... I pray for an increase in my faith in you... You know that I really want to be with someone.. and this man seems to be a great candidate for marriage.. I pray that if he is for me, that you bring him back here with a positive response and that all the other factors will fall into place with your love and grace and mercy as its guide!!
In Jesus sweet and wonderful name, I pray.. Thank you Father!
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