As you (my non-existant) followers, are well aware, I have been single and celibate (with the exception of one "brief" encounter) for the past 3 years. I have not really looked for a relationship minus my participation on a online dating site, which I think I joined solely for the purpose of feeling a bit better about myself without actually getting involved with anyone. I still have a strong desire to have a wonderful man at my side and eventually to get married. I still have strong desires to be intimate with someone again since I've been flying solo for so long! So what's my problem, you ask?
Does having a hard time actually attracting men constitute as a problem?? You bet your bottom dollar it is! I have not been enjoying the way I look recently and obviously this lack of confidence shows... so I havent been attracting anybody. I have actually been chatting with a guy from here and we seem to hit if off online.. but I dont know if he will actually set up a meeting. He seems great, but sometimes negative about his situation... he has a physical handicap. Yeah, imagine that! Some may even be so bold to say that I am desperate for attention that even the physically challenged person can make me fall for him! Ha! I dont know if that's true but this guy is someone who I would've died to go out with, back in the day. Oh of course, if there was no physical challenge on his part, I'm sure he wouldnt even be talking to me.... I'm not in his league! But whatever! We chat online often recently, and he seems to think that we hit if off really well.. so do I actually. He's there for me sometimes when I have bad days and vice versa. We make each other laugh and I think I turned him on last night while we were chatting, simply by being me! Sounds kinda interesting now that I'm reading it back to myself.
Anyways, we decided we should meet up in person soon (we've actually met once before but not as a date)... and hopefully it will be this weekend. We'll see how it goes!
Wish me luck!
Does having a hard time actually attracting men constitute as a problem?? You bet your bottom dollar it is! I have not been enjoying the way I look recently and obviously this lack of confidence shows... so I havent been attracting anybody. I have actually been chatting with a guy from here and we seem to hit if off online.. but I dont know if he will actually set up a meeting. He seems great, but sometimes negative about his situation... he has a physical handicap. Yeah, imagine that! Some may even be so bold to say that I am desperate for attention that even the physically challenged person can make me fall for him! Ha! I dont know if that's true but this guy is someone who I would've died to go out with, back in the day. Oh of course, if there was no physical challenge on his part, I'm sure he wouldnt even be talking to me.... I'm not in his league! But whatever! We chat online often recently, and he seems to think that we hit if off really well.. so do I actually. He's there for me sometimes when I have bad days and vice versa. We make each other laugh and I think I turned him on last night while we were chatting, simply by being me! Sounds kinda interesting now that I'm reading it back to myself.
Anyways, we decided we should meet up in person soon (we've actually met once before but not as a date)... and hopefully it will be this weekend. We'll see how it goes!
Wish me luck!
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