So I was sitting at my desk waiting to go for lunch and a bit of nostalgia hit me and it took me back to March 2008.
I'm back on the cruise ship as a guest, not crew member. I'm sitting out on the pool deck. Its around 8:30 at night and the "love of my life" was at my side. He's a blue eyed, 6' 1", dirty blonde hair, European Engineer who I worked with on the ship. We're having a smoke and a drink after dinner. There's only a couple more days left before I leave to go back home and then to another ship and God alone knows what's gonna happen after that! We'd spent the last couple weeks of my "contract" together and because I was assigned to another ship after my vacation, he thought that we should at least see each other again before then. So I took a cruise while he worked.
He reached over and kissed me gently on the cheek and told me how much I complete him.
Up till that time, I had never known that I could be loved truly and completely as this man loved me. He held my hand and we sat there in silence just staring as the ocean went by.. I wanted that moment to last forever. Little did I know that what we had would only be for a short time, as his life situation would not permit us to continue to be together.
We saw each other again, several weeks after my cruise, when he visited my island for a few days before I headed back out to work. We found out that I was pregnant and he swore he would make it all ok... I believed he would. I so wanted it to be okay. I can still remember the last night I saw him.... it was outside a hotel in Puerto Rico, he cried... so did I. We still communicate occasionally, but I have never seen him since.. I will never forget his face.. or his touch.. the smell of his skin.. or the way his eyes pierced my soul each time he looked at me..
I see his face everyday though, when I look at our daughter. I cry a lot when I think about what we've done. I pray that she will get to know him and have the opportunity to feel his love. I pray that she will never be left without a father, because of our stupid mistake.
Oh.. how I miss him.....
I'm back on the cruise ship as a guest, not crew member. I'm sitting out on the pool deck. Its around 8:30 at night and the "love of my life" was at my side. He's a blue eyed, 6' 1", dirty blonde hair, European Engineer who I worked with on the ship. We're having a smoke and a drink after dinner. There's only a couple more days left before I leave to go back home and then to another ship and God alone knows what's gonna happen after that! We'd spent the last couple weeks of my "contract" together and because I was assigned to another ship after my vacation, he thought that we should at least see each other again before then. So I took a cruise while he worked.
He reached over and kissed me gently on the cheek and told me how much I complete him.
Up till that time, I had never known that I could be loved truly and completely as this man loved me. He held my hand and we sat there in silence just staring as the ocean went by.. I wanted that moment to last forever. Little did I know that what we had would only be for a short time, as his life situation would not permit us to continue to be together.
We saw each other again, several weeks after my cruise, when he visited my island for a few days before I headed back out to work. We found out that I was pregnant and he swore he would make it all ok... I believed he would. I so wanted it to be okay. I can still remember the last night I saw him.... it was outside a hotel in Puerto Rico, he cried... so did I. We still communicate occasionally, but I have never seen him since.. I will never forget his face.. or his touch.. the smell of his skin.. or the way his eyes pierced my soul each time he looked at me..
I see his face everyday though, when I look at our daughter. I cry a lot when I think about what we've done. I pray that she will get to know him and have the opportunity to feel his love. I pray that she will never be left without a father, because of our stupid mistake.
Oh.. how I miss him.....
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