Insomniac?

I'm lying alone, with my head on the phone, thinking of you till it hurts...

Lyrics from an Air Supply song..  (oldie)

I'm not actually thinking of anyone in particular, just thinking about me and how much I would love to be someone else just for a day.. or a lifetime.. And when I say someone else, I dont mean someone totally random.. I actually would love to continue being me, I love who I am (when I can figure who I am!)...

Here are a list of things that I would love to change:

1.     My body weight and size (5'1" and over 148 lbs)...
2.     My lack of a career.. I would love to do something with myself
3.     The fact that I have no man in my life... and could never keep one.
4.     My never-ending spiritual battle..what is right from what is wrong??  Which lines to draw between the 2.
5.     I'd keep my kids but I'd have done some things differently with them...  if I had a career, I would have more money to be able to treat these kids better.. maybe buy a bloody car so I can take them out more often.
6.     I would not have searched for love so hard! I think if I could change things, I would just relax and learn about me more..
7.     I would try to have more female friends that I can still have fun with no matter what!

These are the things I can think about right now.. but I'm sure there are more!

Oh.. I wonder if I can still change some of them!  We'll see!